I'm new to this whole blogging thing, so bear with me here.  After much research, I've decided that I am going to go Paleo.  I'm actually just wanting to lean more toward fruits, vegetables, nuts, seeds and grass fed meats or wild caught fish.  Is it going to be hard?  Very much so.  It's hard to get grass fed meats at a good price so that can become a problem for me.  I really don't want to eat processed food anymore.  The book that I'm reading for marathon training is "The Non-Runners Marathon Trainer", by David Whitsett, Forest Dollenger and Tanjala Kole.  I plan on running the Napa Valley Marathon on March 2nd 2014.  That gives me 8 1/2 months.  I think that will be ample time, even with my exercise induced asthma.

Let me tell a bit about myself, that way you can understand me and why I'm taking this journey.  I am 36.  I have 2 step children.  I could not have children of my own.  Not being able to have children has left an emptiness inside of me, and it's kind of lonely.  I tried to adopt several times, but it never worked out (Don't think I will ever try that again, too depressing when the mother backs out). I don't know if I'm having some kind of a mid life crisis or what the deal is, but I'm going into a panic inside, thinking I will grow old and alone.  Also I keep asking myself, is this all???  Is this it? I don't want to feel this way anymore.  I want to make my life exciting.  I've always wanted to run a marathon, so since I didn't get the "child bearing big event", I'm going to create a "big event" for me.  Something that I will always feel proud of.   Instead of focusing on how sad I am over not having children, I'm going to focus on how amazing I feel, and how wonderful I'm doing in marathon training.  I really want to run my first marathon in Hawaii, but I don't think I will be ready by December.  I am going to treat myself to a little vacation to Napa Valley, I've always wanted to go there.  Wish me luck.  I know I can do this.  I can do anything, and I deserve this big event, I really do. I deserve to have my focus in a positive happy place.  And who knows, maybe I can actually meet some people on the way who are like minded.